Do you want to be a Cyberman?

Passions. What are yours? What are mine? What passions does that girl at the table by the window at Starbucks have? No matter what they are, we all have them, just like insecurities and fears. My passions seem to lay in the artsy fartsy field. I have a love of the theater, a love of music, and a love of writing (hence the blog).
Theater. I didn't discover my love of theater until my sophomore year of High School. I had tried out for shows my freshmen year and didn't make it and was just trying out because I thought it would be fun, then I was actually put in a show. It was the fall play of my sophomore year and I hadn't been cast, but a week before the show I was approached by my English teacher, who was directing the show, and was told that someone had quit and she wanted me to replace her. Thankfully I was just a voice in some kid's head so I could read from the script, but the night of my first show was a thrill, I was so happy to be doing what I was doing, so naturally I auditioned for the next show, and the next one, and the next one, quickly realizing that I wanted to be onstage the rest of my life. People always ask, "Why Theater?" My answer: "It's an escape. I am able to experience new things, and I can get away from reality for a little while and be a completely different person and figure out what it's like to be in their shoes. A lot of the time a role will put something in my life in a whole new perspective for me and it is truly an amazing experience."
Music! Music is another great passion of mine that I've actually had a hold of my entire life, I  think I came out singing! I've been singing since I could speak and I can't imagine not being able to sing. Music screams the words I am afraid to speak. To me, being able to sing to someone how I feel is so much easier than straight up telling them. It's the only I'll ever be able to say "I'm not as together as you think I am" or "I'm so not perfect, but I'm me and that's ok." In the immortal words of Eddplant, "...If it needs to be said then say it, if it needs to be sung don't hesitate..." Singing is sometimes the only way to express something, and when I sing or play my guitar I don't hesitate.
Last but definitely not least is writing. My passion for writing is not as strong as that for music and theater, but the passion is still there, if it weren't I don't think I'd be writing this blog. I didn't really discover my passion for writing until my Junior year of HS. I was sitting in a class one day bored, so I wrote a poem, which the turned into monologues, which then turned into stories, which then turned into movie scripts. It's all for fun and I will probably never actually make my scripts into movies, I'll leave the script writing and carrying out to Kevin Greene (Basically the head of Achieving Movement productions)
So, what's your passion or passions? Are they similar to mine or completely different? Whatever they are don;t stop pursuing them, because if you didn't pursue what you love then what kind of world would we live in? I'll tell you! A world where Cybermen ruled and we all thought the same and looked the same and did all the same things! Boring world right?

An Obsession or a Completely Legit Non-creepy Love of Things?

Let's talk about OBSESSIONS! For starters I mentioned one of mine in my last blog, Doctor Who. Now Doctor Who is a completely AMAZING television series from Jolly Old England! The Doctor is a Time Lord who travels around in a TARDIS (time machine) that looks like a police box. The Doctor always has someone traveling with him, and with said person he continues to save the world in different time periods. This show is, if I'm not mistaken, the longest running Sy-Fy series on television. How do they do this you ask, well, a Time Lord doesn't die, they regenerate. When a Time Lord is close to dying the regenerate and get a new body (new face, new personality, etc) except, they have all the same memories. The Doctor never forgets ANYTHING that happens to him. The only way for a Time Lord to die is if they are killed during their regeneration process. There have been eleven Doctors, including the one and only David Tennant, who is by far the best Doctor I've seen, followed closely by the current Doctor Matt Smith.

Obsession #2: Youtubers with British Accents.
Ok I have a love of a certian Youtuber's music, and it just so happens he has a British accent because well he's from England. Eddplant has quickly become my favorite indie artist. I can listen to his music constantly and not get tired of it! I stumbled upon this youtuber because of another youtuber I found because of his love of Doctor Who. See Charlieissocoollike writes Doctor Who music, also known as Trock, or Time Lord Rock, and is in a band devoted to writing and recording Trock. (SEE! I'm not the only one who is obsessed with The Doctor!) After listening to Charlie and Edd, I found two other friends of theirs that caught my eye, Alex Day and Tom Milsom! Both amazing artists as well and share the love of The Doctor!

I shall Leave you with the words of The Doctor, "Bow ties are cool."

A Sleeve or a Box?

Insecurities, we all have them. Some of us wear them on our sleeves so everyone can see, and others are able to hide theirs inside a small box in their pocket. I'm one of those who wears them on her sleeve, right next to my heart.  I've been faced with a lot of my insecurities lately and I'm finding that it scares the living crap out of me. Over the past few days I've been more aware of my singleness then usual. My brother and his wife (fairly recent, he was married the first weekend of June) came to visit for my cousin's wedding and while spending the day after the wedding with my parents and them my singleness hit me square in the face. They sat there and talked about marriage and relationships almost the entire day and it was all I could do not to cry. I sat there and thought "What if I never get that? What happens if I never find love? What if I end up alone?" And there Ladies and Gents, is my biggest insecurity and fear, being alone. I know that I am never truly alone because I have God and my family and friends, but a romantic aloneness is so different. With the past few boyfriends I've thought, "Is he it? Am I finally with the one?" but again and again I was wrong and ended up hurting and my fear and insecurity got worse. Over time I'm hoping that the fear and insecurity dwindles and I can enjoy a relationship even if I know it will come to an end.

On a lighter note, I suppose I could take some time to tell you about myself, I mean you've already read more about me than I like to tell so why not give you some basics as well. I'm Christian, and a volunteer youth leader at my church. I'm an actress, and I can't imagine my life without theater. I am currently involved with Achieving Movement, an independent film company run by some close friends, making mostly horror films. I've been in eight plays and two musicals. My favorite role to date was when I got the chance to play Juliet in Shakespeare's classic Romeo and Juliet, that role followed closely by the time I got to play an eighteen year old boy and wear a bow tie. (yes, I said bow tie, bow ties are cool) I'm a writer. I am in a band called Illibrium which means "of rain" in Latin. I have no idea what genre we are so don't ask, we play whatever we like no matter the genre. I have one brother and a newly found sister-in-law. I have an obsession with Doctor Who (that will have its own post)

For now I'm gonna say that's all, I think this was a productive first blog.

God Bless,
Allie Elise